Short Me-summary! [Conceited Me-talk!]

... As if I hadn't been doing that the whole time.... :)

Okie dokie everybody! I have an actual comment on my blog (!), and so I'm going to type a teeny summary about me, since I never put it in my "about me" section... but maybe I should!? naw, too long.

--> I've just left college unfinished. I barely believe in myself anymore. I just completely gave up and failed with the worst grades possible. Actually... I got addicted to TV and let myself be taken away with it instead of facing the problems I was causing myself. I have very bad self control. So NOW, I'm re-wiring my time management, self-control, and self-confidence.

In the past, I've worked in care-homes for elderly, and as a sales representative. I was fine at both jobs. I'd like a job as a receptionist now, but it looks like jobs aren't too available... I have yet to look. :) (I procrastinate. I am a BIG scaredy-cat.)

My important things: get a job, practice piano, learn Japanese, study the Bible. I really want to make these my priorities, all kind of important in their own way, things I don't forget for a single day.

Also, I live in a family of four, with married parents and a teenage brother. I'm a 7th-day adventist, my whole life, and I've made it one of my goals to learn about God so I understand WHY I believe what my church believes, instead of just "going along" with those principles.

About my religion.... Seventh-day adventists might be considered similar to Baptists. We're very biblically-based, and our trademark is "Ellen White", no jewelry, haystacks, no dancing... I'm just naming archaic stereotypes, of course. (It's a joke, a JOKE!!!) Ask me, if you want to know! I think our denomination has some really great ideas, good people, and I've gone to our schools my whole life, and I really like it. But really, the difference in religion, to me, is the way people interpret God. Some ideas that differ from 7th-day adventism are deadly incorrect, while some SDA principles SHOULD be looked at in a different way. I DO think our beliefs are correct, but I know that bringing up arguments isn't the best way to get people's attention at first glance. However, it's GOOD to QUESTION things! Tradition should be examined. But mostly, I just really believe in loving others, like Jesus says to do. :)

I am a confused, indecisive person... and conceited. I never know whether I am myself because I really am, or I just think that. I am stubborn, emotional, and I have a temper when it comes to family. I wish I was a calmer person, but I'm not. :) I can pretend well, though.... I lie to myself a lot-- that's how I got bad grades, because I hid from what I was doing. I do it now, even today. I want to travel the world. I want to communicate with people. I'm curious. I love understanding things, especially emotion.

Oh, and I am easily addicted to TV and activities like writing, or organizing, and I'm lazy.... I wish I had lots of money and influence, but at the same time, I want to be a good person who doesn't, you know, deserve death for her complete SELFISHNESS (partly 'cause I do care about others, so it's confusing.) I don't know what else to write....

Uhhh. Maybe too much information? Anyway. I don't know what else to write about me. Mr. Johnny, let me know if that is something to start with? Thanks!