The End?

I'm afraid I need to delete my blog. I feel like writing things down needs to be for an audience. Without an audience, there's no point; I could just think instead.

Thinking, now, that's an efficient process! Since thinking is it more difficult than talking out loud, due to the speed and freedom through which one can get distracted or lose focus-- doing so frequently, especially when it's hard thinking, can lead to much better control over your own mind. When people joke that someone doesn't do a lot of thinking-- "he never thinks", "she's not much of a thinker", they may actually be describing someone who (fairly or unfairly) doesn't appear to be intelligent due to lack of self-control. Of course, importance of self-control really depends on your opinion....

Anyways. uh. There you go. I have bad self-control. That's why I profess to know so much about it. It's only me who thinks I'm intelligent on this subject, I'm sure no one else would agree with me! Arrrgggg! Shut up, Cara. You're not helping.

Oh, sorry! Don't listen to me....

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that I think I'm wasting time typing when I could just take my thoughts to heart. I don't feel like I'm doing that now.

I had some rules, though, that I wanted to bring up, about blogging. Maybe I should use those before I go nuts and delete everything. (After printing it out, of course. I'm not absolutely crazy. Or am I, too keep all this blathering? No. It's not blathering, it's valuable to me, if no one else! :)

I'm probably just not doing it right. Writing is very important to me. Burning my bridge by throwing away this method of writing (blogging) isn't necessarily the answer, I just need to approach it differently, instead of going for it randomly and purposelessly like I've been doing.

K. Here's what I need to do next time.

1. approach a blog entry with a specific topic in mind, and cover just that. Only. That's all. Then, you can have a real title!

2. Be more concise. Write what you mean, without what you don't. Try writing entries in a less relaxed mood, (number 1) where you are writing for a reason, not just as a diary entry. Diaries are too slow a method for thoughts, they should be more polished. Or at least, my diaries will be.

3. Take entries thoughts with me, or it's all for nothing. That's an exaggeration, if someone ever reads my writing. But in theory, this is true - and even more, if my writing doesn't benefit me, how can I expect it to benefit others? I need to take it more seriously and not write for others' approval, but my own approval. Then, I can believe in the respect others may have for me.

No deleting blog. Reformatting of future entries is all.