AAAARRRGGG!!!

I'm doing this better now.

I have to stop writing down things to organize my brain. Like schedules, for example. Why do I need to write what I'm going to do? I can remember it. If I can't remember it, I wasn't going to do it anyway. Writing it is okay, but I need to actually do it, no matter how. Also, no more lists on my phone. I mean, no long list.

I keep stuff. That's a problem too. At least, life doesn't have to be this complicated.

I can write things down to organize my brain and to remind myself, but I also need to get used to remembering things when I need to remember them-- like knowing what I'll do tomorrow morning, even if I have or HAVEN'T written it down.

If I don't complete that task, it's because I didn't complete it. That's all.

Okay?

Okay.

I need to get moving. That's really all it is.

AAAARRRGGG!!!


Urrrrrgggggggg.... urg.

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--> figure out my schedule - when I will be working and when I will go to school. Get information to make sure it will work. Get a job when it's time. Otherwise...
--> Learn Japanese, read the Bible, improve my piano, and be healthy.
--> everything else is for later. LATER!!! *popping eyeballs, red face, leaking tears, clenched and shaking fists, steaming ears, train horn noise*

The goals going on my mirror are:

1. Be pianist
(schedule classes and work, practice daily)

2. Discover God
(bible daily)

3. Japanese
(five+ symbols a day)

4. Health
(exercise, lessen sugar)

good.
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