Final Revelation!

HAHAHA!!!

I figured it out. I figured out what I have to do!

It's okay that I'm uncertain. I'm not one of those motivated people who wants to work hard. At least, right now, I'm not one of those people, because I'm not confident. That's okay. I need to start slow.

But this whole time, I was trying to think a certain way-- I was WISHING that I had bigger dreams, but I DON'T. It's silly to force myself to want to do something. I was trying NOT to pick a "career" because I WISHED I had a desire for one, but since I DON'T want one, it's hard to force myself to have a preference.

So,  I've taken the nursing assistant course. I don't really like the job particularly, but it IS quite fun sometimes. I already have the education and I have held a job and I'm on my second one. I've taken some college classes that could count toward getting even higher education in nursing, and there is a program near me with which I become a Licensed Practical Nurse. My family wants me to get my college education over with, and I can't become a piano teacher without a bachelor's degree, but I need a better job to pay for that.

So I'm going to go to school to get an associates' degree and become a LPN. I have the experience and the program is available. I will probably have to go later (next year), since I don't have money for it now. Since I some of my college courses already taken and passed, I can learn Spanish, too, and be a translator or interpreter on the side. After I finish and get the licensed practical nurse job, I will save up to become a piano teacher. I can move away from home and start taking courses at a college that offers theory courses.

Then, I'll travel the world and learn languages! That is a little bit more of a ? mark. But someday, I want to go somewhere. As it turns out, you need money for that. That's why I need to get a more stable job, and learn how to effectively save money from it so that I can get a better education.

Yay!!! I guess I just needed a little pressure in order to realize that all this worrying is because I just needed to get an education... instead of being totally delighted with my career. This isn't a decision like marriage! I can change my career along the way, and I can be happy with my life regardless of my job.