The Final Crash Project List

My dad had ANOTHER talk with me. But I didn't mind it. My attitude has changed, I think. I did a good job of mostly "listening" and I didn't argue when I wanted to.

Because as much as I want to put up protests and make excuses, the truth is that is just what they are. If I haven't succeeded in the areas that my dad wants me to -- getting a job, getting an education, helping out around the house, keeping my room clean-- then he may as well be right and I need to listen to his advice. Of course, I have my own opinions about how I can fix my laziness and assorted other bad habits, but it's not like I've even taken my own advice.

So I just listened! It worked pretty well. He gave me a list of the things that he talked to me about, and asked me to keep it so that we could look at it later and see how well my progress as gone.

That sort of thing is really helpful to me! I like it because I have a real person to be accountable to. Usually I make lists for myself, but that leaves me only accountable to myself. And I agree with basically everything on the list, except he wants me not to watch TV on my laptop anymore...

And yet didn't I just post that I wanted to do that? I haven't been able to meet  the goal of "never watching" yet.

I'm making it sound difficult, when really that's just me making bad decisions. And even what I'm writing here... is, yet, the same thing. But I think it's important that I keep trying to use my time wisely. I do need to focus more on my goals instead of procrastinating. I use TV to procrastinate. I suppose this is a habit I'm going to HAVE to change. Here's my lsit of things that I really need to do, in this order, before I can effectively start using that planner-schedule I keep trying to do (the by-the-minute one).

This list is important because I have a hard time being organized when my room is messy. Also, this list is important because my life is in disarray (messy room, no job, and I'm too shy all the time, kind of like... a female hikikomori... haha... eh.) so I'm trying to get over the problem areas so I can actually work on a normal schedule (being prepared to work full time, and sleeping at normal times, and studying productively for nursing school).

The Final Crash Project List
WOOO HAHAHAHAHAHAHa (evil laugh)
1. go to sleep/bed after nine pm at night.
2. clean my room. clean something else to help around the house, at least 3 things, per day.
3. exercise every day.
4. make myself pretty even if I'm planning on exercising in a minute. otherwise, I'll be too scared to let people see me, and then I get afraid to go other places in the house.
5. practice piano, five hours a day. HA. Beat that, Cara from before this post. (I'm competing with myself. What? No, I don't have multiple personality disorder! XD Because my multiple personalities are all named Cara, therefore, they're still me.)
6. look for jobs as an accompanist. look for jobs as a nursing assistant if that doesn't work. it might not, because music schools have jobs available for their music students, not me, right? a church is possible, though. i just may need to look for a CNA job in the first place anyway. -- BASICALLY, JUST GET A JOB OUT OF NECESSITY. JUST DO IT!!!

k. I'm pasting it into my daynotes. byebye.