SCORE!

GOAL!

I think I've got them down now, really, to a pinpoint. Simplifying things is good. Vacationing (what I've been doing:) ) is good for getting things down to pinpoints like that.

Here we go:

1. Bible, lose weight. (physical)
2. Piano/theory, Japanese, job (career)
3. read (mental)

Here's the explanation, so I DON'T FORGET. !!

1. Bible, lose weight.

okay, this is the PHYSICAL part. Not that reading the bible is physical, but it is very basic. My life is really based on my religion, because I get depressed in life without a point, and I feel that without God being real, and a part of me and my thoughts and my actions, I don't see a point in life (besides self-enjoyment). Just personal enjoyment, in itself, doesn't seem useful, in the ultimate sense. It's kind of hard to make sense of... :) but anyway, if I don't do read the bible, I'm not paying attention to why I exist. So I've got to start doing that, always, daily.

also! Me not losing weight? It's RUINING MY LIFE! I mean, I'm letting it. So if it bothers me that much, I should just lose weight and be happy with myself! This is about vanity, so WHAT? It's important to me, and it's something I could accomplish if I tried harder. So I WILL. --

NUMBER ONE is the goal I will focus on the most. I think it would center me more than anything else, because these basics, well, are just that. Basics. I need these things to even exist correctly in my reality. Right now, I don't feel like myself because I've gained weight, and I feel wrong somehow. Furthermore, I don't know what decisions to make in my life without God's guidance and a growing understanding understanding of his character (and therefore how I can be like him, making decisions he would want me to). If I could feel confident about my physical self and confident about my mental self by knowing what decisions I should make, that would center me so much more than I am now. Right now, I am NOT okay. This is important.

2. Piano/theory, Japanese, job

this is the CAREER part. It's all related to my skills-- what I'll be able to do with my hands (actions) and my brain (ideas, and creativity) in the world. It's how I can use my life. So that involves some education, a job, and some basic getting-life-experience activities.

3. read

This is a great goal, but it's not nearly as important as the first two. I want to read in my spare time, when I have it. I want to be the sort of person who immerses herself in stories, poetry, and literature to improve her reading comprehension and slowly learn about the world. Later on, I need to add to this goal by including real-life stuff like learning about real people, not just through stories, but for now this is just a goal to improve my mental capacity and vocabulary. :) My family and I have a lot of books, and I can go to the library. However, I might not have time for this goal, that's okay. It's a reminder of the importance of reading more than a task; I think I have enough other things to do.