Work went well! I am not as inexperienced as I thought, and I think I can handle this job. Also, I like the building a lot, at Crystal Palace-- it reminds me of a hotel, and I LOVE hotels. (Just like I love the atmosphere in airports and restaurants and department stores...?) It doesn't smell quite so terrible as the location of my last employment. I'm excited to work there. Now I just have to be happy with myself, too.
I am a very nervous person. I mean, this is especially apparent in how I felt last night while I was working. I feel awkward around people who don't feel awkward around me, I'm REALLY fidgety, and I worry about mistakes I make, like not being able to find someone's pulse. I just have no confidence! Maybe that's not it... because I really do like myself as a person, mostly.... I think that part of the problem is that I have "anxiety" to the point that some psychologists would suggest medication. However, I want to learn how to control the way I feel, not suppress it. :)
It's easy to feel anxious when you're not confident. I think it is something that will go away on its own. I would certainly consider going to a psychiatrist to talk about it if it really is an issue, but I suspect it's not.
Anyway, it's not that bad. I have a bad complexion and I've gained weight. It's okay to want to change, as long as it's possible!!!
I'm off to bed. When I wake up, I'm going to work on getting some of those priorities done that you can see in my last post. Yippee!!
I'm happy for you! Sounds like your getting back on track! Oh, and I like those places, too C:
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