Re-read! Things I'm Reminding Myself Of!

1. start writing all my meals down, six-ish a day (divide the three blanks up once, = six) and write a little number in each corner, in a square, for the hour I ate at. Be concise, clear, and do it every time because it's IMPORTANT.

2. I mustn't be so sensitive anymore when it comes to worrying about what others think of me. In a way, it's SELFISH. I need to do what I need to, and keep my self- boundaries clear. I am me, but everyone else is everyone else. So also, I need to be more sensitive when they ask something of me for themselves, and then I need to respect them in turn. If it's effective, tell them the TRUTH about how I feel. If I need to get away from spending time with a person at all (Alex) deal with the problem and be truthful in how I'm feeling, DON'T lie. If it's not effective to tell the truth and I need to STAY in a relationship with that person, just WORK with them, and stop trying to change them with my own opinions and thoughts. That is where the boundary lies.

3. My boundaries-unclear-ness might also be causing problems with my time orientation. It's like I'm unaware of how to control the time in front of me. It's a form of impatience, kind of, but worse. It's like I'm soooo impatient to get to what I want to do (watch TV or do other lazy things that are fun but unproductive) that I never start the other things I NEED to do, like basic things-- doing homework, chores, or other less fun types of tasks. I have to recognize that just because I stop watching TV or eating food (two of my main problems, I guess) that I can come back to those activities later, when they are time-appropriate again. So I need to be more time-appropriate aware, and recognize when it's time to be patient regarding tasks and the time it takes to do them.

4. Pick a time when I want to go to bed ahead of time, write it down on my purple chart, and just go. It's yet another one of those tasks I avoid because I'm not being patient.

5. After assigning myself a time I'm going to go to bed, ahead of time, then I'll need to plan my eating times and exercise times. Because I'm going to bed at a certain time, I've got to plan when I'll eat and exercise so that it doesn't get in the way of sleeping. I should not eat in bed (bad!!! :) so, that means I'll need to be more careful to not be eating during the hour before I head to bed.