ＡＡＡＲＲＲＲＲＲＧ
I am sooooo maaaad at ANKI because IT IS AWESOME but SERIOUSLY I am
OBSESSIVE
COMPUSLIVE
and I take HOURS to make a SIMPLE MODEL!!!!!!!!!!!
AARRRRRRRRRRg.
Now I actually need to begin IMPUT and I'm so hungry I'm about to drop onto my carpet and stay there until I emaciate for lack of strength to get upstairs----
goodbye---
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Okay Cara, calm down.
Don't be depressed just because your day isn't going well.
Your future is not your day. Your future is your FUTURE.
Don't forget the stuff that makes me happy! There are wonderful things I'm doing. I've got Japanese kanji to learn today, and exercising to do. I have reasons for things and a path my feet must go down.
While the moment might be sad, your life certainly is not. Look forward. My goal is beyond the stars.
Don't be depressed just because your day isn't going well.
Your future is not your day. Your future is your FUTURE.
Don't forget the stuff that makes me happy! There are wonderful things I'm doing. I've got Japanese kanji to learn today, and exercising to do. I have reasons for things and a path my feet must go down.
While the moment might be sad, your life certainly is not. Look forward. My goal is beyond the stars.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
What Do You Think of This Translation?
神風怪盗ジャンヌ
Well, I've never done this before, but here is my translation of this song:
PIECE OF LOVE・Shaznaオリジナル曲
* * * * * * * * * * *
PIECE OF LOVE
輝く瞬間を
かがやく・を・とき・を
In that sparkling instant
「とき」is unconventionally written 瞬間・しゅんかん・moment, instant」
いつもいつも夢見てた
「いつも・いつも・ゆめ・みて・た」
I wish I could have dreamed--always, always
（神風怪盗ジャンヌ)
明日は何かが変わる
「あした・は・なにか・が・かわる」
Tomorrow, something changes
そんな予感がしてる
I can sense it coming
「そんな・よ、かん・が・してる 」
蜃気楼の中で待つあなたの所まで
in a mirage, you wait in such a faraway place
「しん、き、ろう・の・なか・で・まつ・あなた・の・ところ・まで」
色づきはじめてる街を横目に急ぐ
As I hasten, I glance at a town beginning to color
「いろ付き・はじめてる・まち・を・よこ、め・に・いそぐ」よこめ＝sidelong glance
走り出す君に
I run to you
「はしり・だ・す・きみ・に」
So恋の風を感じた
So, I feel the love in the wind
「ソウ・こい・の・かぜ・を・かんじた」
出逢って突然
and-- suddenly I met you
「で、あって・とつ、ぜん」
盗まれたこのHeartがトキメク
This heart, stolen, beats fast.
I'm really not all that good at Japanese, so I'm pretty sure I interpreted the grammar incorrectly, since others who translated this song wrote some of this differently. Basically, I'm apologizing for guessing... :)
Well, I've never done this before, but here is my translation of this song:
PIECE OF LOVE・Shaznaオリジナル曲
* * * * * * * * * * *
PIECE OF LOVE
輝く瞬間を
かがやく・を・とき・を
In that sparkling instant
「とき」is unconventionally written 瞬間・しゅんかん・moment, instant」
いつもいつも夢見てた
「いつも・いつも・ゆめ・みて・た」
I wish I could have dreamed--always, always
（神風怪盗ジャンヌ)
明日は何かが変わる
「あした・は・なにか・が・かわる」
Tomorrow, something changes
そんな予感がしてる
I can sense it coming
「そんな・よ、かん・が・してる 」
蜃気楼の中で待つあなたの所まで
in a mirage, you wait in such a faraway place
「しん、き、ろう・の・なか・で・まつ・あなた・の・ところ・まで」
色づきはじめてる街を横目に急ぐ
As I hasten, I glance at a town beginning to color
「いろ付き・はじめてる・まち・を・よこ、め・に・いそぐ」よこめ＝sidelong glance
走り出す君に
I run to you
「はしり・だ・す・きみ・に」
So恋の風を感じた
So, I feel the love in the wind
「ソウ・こい・の・かぜ・を・かんじた」
出逢って突然
and-- suddenly I met you
「で、あって・とつ、ぜん」
盗まれたこのHeartがトキメク
This heart, stolen, beats fast.
I'm really not all that good at Japanese, so I'm pretty sure I interpreted the grammar incorrectly, since others who translated this song wrote some of this differently. Basically, I'm apologizing for guessing... :)
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Switch Between Confusing Japanese Keyboard Layouts: Romaji Input and Kana Input! (Simple answer at the bottom)
I am soooo excited about something I just figured out.
Something about Japanese IME has confused me forever. I think it's mostly because of those befuddling explanations, "Here's how you switch between hiragana, katakana, half-width that and half-width this--"
"And you can do it two different ways-- by editing the settings, clicking with the mouse, although using the symmetrical copies of the same keys may not work; also please do "
"And it will be totally backwards if you're running vista, or if you're running XP it could be slightly closer to this model--"
By the way, we hope you're VERY confused by now! If only we could make you, poor little english-japanese-typing-newbie, give up... but with the invention of Copy and Paste, we may not prevail in this effort.... pooohy..."
The settings menus are also very detailed and befuddleoozing.
SO! My keyboard gets confusing every once in a while. I'm just typing along happily in Japanese, entering text into Jisho, Google translate, searching lyrics, or peering at anime and manga on amazon.jp.... and SURPRISE!
The symbols come out wrong. The letters are not what they seem to be. I press は and get くち. WHAT IS THIS!?
The keyboard is whacked. My fingers are insane. My brain-muscle coordination has exploded in its capacity for functionalism.
At first I thought something crazy was going on, and I couldn't explain it. I'm very slow that way. …^o.o^… Then I realized my keyboard layout was different. It was like I was typing on some Japanese keyboard. And I was!
Duh. You can switch between "Kana Imput" and "Romaji Imput". Some keyboards, like the ones Japanese might use, have a layout with little kana on each key. So you don't have to press two keys to get a kana, you can press ONE key.
Romaji imput is obviously going to be easier for us English speakers, since we don't have to learn how to type all over again. I've also heard it said that neither method is especially more efficient than the other.
Here's the shortcut for switching your keyboard layout!-> (make sure to press these keys while in the Japanese IME, which should be activated most simply by pressing alt+shift)
ctrl+shift+capslock
....that's it....
Please note I use Vista! That could make a difference... -.-' ? ? ?
Something about Japanese IME has confused me forever. I think it's mostly because of those befuddling explanations, "Here's how you switch between hiragana, katakana, half-width that and half-width this--"
"And you can do it two different ways-- by editing the settings, clicking with the mouse, although using the symmetrical copies of the same keys may not work; also please do "
"And it will be totally backwards if you're running vista, or if you're running XP it could be slightly closer to this model--"
By the way, we hope you're VERY confused by now! If only we could make you, poor little english-japanese-typing-newbie, give up... but with the invention of Copy and Paste, we may not prevail in this effort.... pooohy..."
The settings menus are also very detailed and befuddleoozing.
SO! My keyboard gets confusing every once in a while. I'm just typing along happily in Japanese, entering text into Jisho, Google translate, searching lyrics, or peering at anime and manga on amazon.jp.... and SURPRISE!
The symbols come out wrong. The letters are not what they seem to be. I press は and get くち. WHAT IS THIS!?
The keyboard is whacked. My fingers are insane. My brain-muscle coordination has exploded in its capacity for functionalism.
At first I thought something crazy was going on, and I couldn't explain it. I'm very slow that way. …^o.o^… Then I realized my keyboard layout was different. It was like I was typing on some Japanese keyboard. And I was!
Duh. You can switch between "Kana Imput" and "Romaji Imput". Some keyboards, like the ones Japanese might use, have a layout with little kana on each key. So you don't have to press two keys to get a kana, you can press ONE key.
Romaji imput is obviously going to be easier for us English speakers, since we don't have to learn how to type all over again. I've also heard it said that neither method is especially more efficient than the other.
Here's the shortcut for switching your keyboard layout!-> (make sure to press these keys while in the Japanese IME, which should be activated most simply by pressing alt+shift)
ctrl+shift+capslock
....that's it....
Please note I use Vista! That could make a difference... -.-' ? ? ?
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Guilt. Food. Anime.
I realized something earlier today.
It has to do with the fact that I've been losing weight lately. I believe that my new method is contributing to this fact. I'll tell you my method, but seriously-- this only works if you are the type of person who feels guilty when she eats something that could "make her fat".
I feel guilty a lot. In fact, I think guilt might be one of the most natural things that stir my emotions. But it doesn't necessarily make me feel MOTIVATED. It makes me feel kinda lousy. And when I feel lousy, or depressed, I eat chocolate or watch too much anime. That means I am not studying, exercising, going to work, or spending time with humans.
So I'm living here at home. My family knows I like anime, and I have in the past spent too much time on it. So even though it's something I love a lot, and I've decided to enjoy it even if other people look down on me, but I'm not successful at taking their criticism in a useful way. Everyday, they talk to me about this or that issue that I have. They give advice. My dad wakes me up in the morning, his face white and his voice angry, telling me what I need to do that day. If I'm relaxing it's best to do it somewhere hidden because it's hard to relax when people are talking to you about touchy subjects. I just can't get out of this atmosphere, mentally, and it's tough to stay sane.
So yeah, they're right that this isn't good, I admit it. Because I like life too. I love music and making money and getting educated and dancing and having friends to hang out with. But I can't be that kind of person if I feel guilty about everything "bad" that I do.
That's kinda how I'm losing weight, too-- while gentle-stretching and heart-pumping exercise is deathly important, it's very essential that I keep in mind at all times not to feel guilty when I splurge on a little something here or there. Because I allow myself to eat literally any food or snack that I want to, (unless I'm full) I am mostly able to eat healthy. I can splurge any time I want. I have self-control BECAUSE I'm not on a diet, I'm free! My decisions are up to me regarding sweets and meals, so I feel free to make good decisions, and it's EASY.
So because it's easy, I don't even have to think about it too hard, and I'm no longer focused on food. In the past, I would worry about my "diet" so that I felt like I needed to "fix" something, which led to me eating. I felt like eating something would help my diet.
Of course, it also is necessary to be occupied with something else besides losing weight for this to work, or you won't be able to stop thinking about your diet in the first place. Replace your "eating worry fix" with something else. I replaced it with exercising, piano, Japanese, or looking online for college classes in a nearby city.
And bla bla bla. Thanks for reading! :)
It has to do with the fact that I've been losing weight lately. I believe that my new method is contributing to this fact. I'll tell you my method, but seriously-- this only works if you are the type of person who feels guilty when she eats something that could "make her fat".
I feel guilty a lot. In fact, I think guilt might be one of the most natural things that stir my emotions. But it doesn't necessarily make me feel MOTIVATED. It makes me feel kinda lousy. And when I feel lousy, or depressed, I eat chocolate or watch too much anime. That means I am not studying, exercising, going to work, or spending time with humans.
So I'm living here at home. My family knows I like anime, and I have in the past spent too much time on it. So even though it's something I love a lot, and I've decided to enjoy it even if other people look down on me, but I'm not successful at taking their criticism in a useful way. Everyday, they talk to me about this or that issue that I have. They give advice. My dad wakes me up in the morning, his face white and his voice angry, telling me what I need to do that day. If I'm relaxing it's best to do it somewhere hidden because it's hard to relax when people are talking to you about touchy subjects. I just can't get out of this atmosphere, mentally, and it's tough to stay sane.
So yeah, they're right that this isn't good, I admit it. Because I like life too. I love music and making money and getting educated and dancing and having friends to hang out with. But I can't be that kind of person if I feel guilty about everything "bad" that I do.
I need to make decisions before I take an action. I will say, "hey, I'm going to do this now" and NOT feel guilty about it. I won't simply eat ice cream or watch anime out of habit-- I'll make the decision to take the time or calories. If I don't want to do it because it's not good for me, or because it's not the time, then I'll make the decision NOT to do this thing. But either way, I will do my best to smash any poisonous, irrational guilt with my sledgehammer until it is as flat as a snake on highway blacktop.
That's kinda how I'm losing weight, too-- while gentle-stretching and heart-pumping exercise is deathly important, it's very essential that I keep in mind at all times not to feel guilty when I splurge on a little something here or there. Because I allow myself to eat literally any food or snack that I want to, (unless I'm full) I am mostly able to eat healthy. I can splurge any time I want. I have self-control BECAUSE I'm not on a diet, I'm free! My decisions are up to me regarding sweets and meals, so I feel free to make good decisions, and it's EASY.
So because it's easy, I don't even have to think about it too hard, and I'm no longer focused on food. In the past, I would worry about my "diet" so that I felt like I needed to "fix" something, which led to me eating. I felt like eating something would help my diet.
I was worried-- and thinking about food all day, excited about my next meal, focusing on food BECAUSE of my diet. Now, I don't feel like I have a problem regarding food, and so my urge to eat in order to "fix" something isn't there.
Of course, it also is necessary to be occupied with something else besides losing weight for this to work, or you won't be able to stop thinking about your diet in the first place. Replace your "eating worry fix" with something else. I replaced it with exercising, piano, Japanese, or looking online for college classes in a nearby city.
And bla bla bla. Thanks for reading! :)
Monday, January 16, 2012
What will I do?
I'm going to get a job on my own. I'm doing it because I want to. I need to do it, and I know that. I am the one in charge. I believe I can do it, and that is a lot. Jesus loves me. I will not cry. I feel sad, but I will succeed. I am not afraid of my fear.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
WEIGHT LOSS! Me. Tips. For Sensitive Peeps.
This is a post I made to my weight loss diary at Weight Loss Fitness. (My name is Lindethiel.) I like it and I think it will be helpful to other people who are like me. And myself in the future when I get fat. I hope that doesn't happen, but I bet it's helpful to expect bad things so you avoid them :)
❝I wanted to leave an update :) I guess I started this diary in 2009? That was three years ago....
Anyway, I ended up gaining a bit of weight sometime... Maybe I had gained and lost even before 2009, or something, and I never admitted, but I should say my highest weight was 197.
But I started working out really seriously recently, and also getting busy with music and various activities, and then when I eat, I don't panic. I don't scold myself. I eat whatever I want. I just ate five or six pieces of chocolate, you know, those balls of chocolate that you have to crack on the counter and you get slices kind of like an orange? and an entire tray of Qiueen Anne Cordial Cherries. And now I'm satisfied for chocolate, and I'll go upstairs and eat salad with dressing and sunflower seeds and cheddar cheese, and possibly some toast or boiled and salted vegetables. Eggs sound good too. I'm able to eat anything I want because I'm a wild sort of person... I work out by dancing in front of my TV with my favorite music going, or by stretching a lot, or by jogging, or running around the house cleaning.
I eat healthy most often though, because it tastes better and makes my stomach feel happier. Working out makes you want to eat healthier since you're already in pain in the first place, the food you eat doesn't really matter too much. Since you're starving.
I reached my weight loss present today!! I have more to go, but today I weigh 168!!! Three days in a row, actually. I got to open my manga/comic book set that I'd bought earlier, Nana (ナナ) and I'm super happy about it~! It's lined up in my bookcase right now.
168 is very good for me. Recently I was 187, at my basic "I can't move away from this number" kind of thing. So this is fantastic.
And that's just how it's going so far! :) Thanks, everybody, for being supportive. I'll pray that you guys succeed as well!! :) ♥ [I know I'm a loser for not visiting the forum...for two years.] LOL...
Basically, if I could give one... err, a few tips, it would be like this.
1. Don't focus on food. IF (IF!) food is the problem for you in the first place, and if you don't mind trying something new, try forgetting about your diet. That doesn't mean giving up on your health and trying to kill yourself with cotton candy and fried chicken and potato chips just because you missed them. It means NOT beating yourself up about everything that goes in your mouth, and thinking you're a failure or a gross person. And your mouth NOT is a trashcan. If you go on diets a lot, this is hard to do because you (might) have trained yourself to worry a lot about your self control, what you eat, and bla bla bla. So you don't even trust yourself anymore.
So yeah, you should eat healthy. Some foods are bad for your heart and your joints and your life. But cracking your skull repeatedly on a brick wall as mental punishment will not make your self-control better. It's going to make you weak and afraid and embarrassed and not able to take hold of your problem and strangle it.
If you feel shame about how you are now, that might help you lose weight. But for me personally, it doesn't help me to slam my head into the wall of "reality" too many times. You COULD try accepting yourself, your body, your shape, even while you want to change yourself. You don't have to hate what you want to change about yourself. For instance, accept that you are handsome or beautiful, but tell yourself and other people you are losing weight for your HEALTH.
INSTEAD, FOCUS ON LIVING, GETTING FIT (no matter what age you are, get fit for that age) AND ENJOY IT. Get busy with that, and busy with trying your best to be happy and positive and cool and collected. And it's not easy, so don't be surprised if it doesn't work right away. You're going to have to work your butt off. And when you think you're at your limit, you have to keep going another twenty miles.
Other stuff that MAY help you...
2. make weight loss goals that are tiny. Even better, goals that you know you can make it to.
3. Weigh every day at the same time. (poop and meals and fluid in your body will change your weight, so take weight at the same time every day for accuracy.)
4. Accept what's going on. Admit the truth. If you gained weight, say it out loud. If you feel like punching the wall or crying, don't pretend you aren't upset by hiding it.
5. Don't make excuses, especially not to yourself. If you do that, you trying to make yourself feel better about making mistakes. If you just admit that sometimes you're going to fail, it isn't so difficult to try.
6. just believe in yourself already. There's no other way to have confidence except by taking it.❞
❝I wanted to leave an update :) I guess I started this diary in 2009? That was three years ago....
Anyway, I ended up gaining a bit of weight sometime... Maybe I had gained and lost even before 2009, or something, and I never admitted, but I should say my highest weight was 197.
But I started working out really seriously recently, and also getting busy with music and various activities, and then when I eat, I don't panic. I don't scold myself. I eat whatever I want. I just ate five or six pieces of chocolate, you know, those balls of chocolate that you have to crack on the counter and you get slices kind of like an orange? and an entire tray of Qiueen Anne Cordial Cherries. And now I'm satisfied for chocolate, and I'll go upstairs and eat salad with dressing and sunflower seeds and cheddar cheese, and possibly some toast or boiled and salted vegetables. Eggs sound good too. I'm able to eat anything I want because I'm a wild sort of person... I work out by dancing in front of my TV with my favorite music going, or by stretching a lot, or by jogging, or running around the house cleaning.
I eat healthy most often though, because it tastes better and makes my stomach feel happier. Working out makes you want to eat healthier since you're already in pain in the first place, the food you eat doesn't really matter too much. Since you're starving.
I reached my weight loss present today!! I have more to go, but today I weigh 168!!! Three days in a row, actually. I got to open my manga/comic book set that I'd bought earlier, Nana (ナナ) and I'm super happy about it~! It's lined up in my bookcase right now.
168 is very good for me. Recently I was 187, at my basic "I can't move away from this number" kind of thing. So this is fantastic.
And that's just how it's going so far! :) Thanks, everybody, for being supportive. I'll pray that you guys succeed as well!! :) ♥ [I know I'm a loser for not visiting the forum...for two years.] LOL...
Basically, if I could give one... err, a few tips, it would be like this.
1. Don't focus on food. IF (IF!) food is the problem for you in the first place, and if you don't mind trying something new, try forgetting about your diet. That doesn't mean giving up on your health and trying to kill yourself with cotton candy and fried chicken and potato chips just because you missed them. It means NOT beating yourself up about everything that goes in your mouth, and thinking you're a failure or a gross person. And your mouth NOT is a trashcan. If you go on diets a lot, this is hard to do because you (might) have trained yourself to worry a lot about your self control, what you eat, and bla bla bla. So you don't even trust yourself anymore.
So yeah, you should eat healthy. Some foods are bad for your heart and your joints and your life. But cracking your skull repeatedly on a brick wall as mental punishment will not make your self-control better. It's going to make you weak and afraid and embarrassed and not able to take hold of your problem and strangle it.
If you feel shame about how you are now, that might help you lose weight. But for me personally, it doesn't help me to slam my head into the wall of "reality" too many times. You COULD try accepting yourself, your body, your shape, even while you want to change yourself. You don't have to hate what you want to change about yourself. For instance, accept that you are handsome or beautiful, but tell yourself and other people you are losing weight for your HEALTH.
INSTEAD, FOCUS ON LIVING, GETTING FIT (no matter what age you are, get fit for that age) AND ENJOY IT. Get busy with that, and busy with trying your best to be happy and positive and cool and collected. And it's not easy, so don't be surprised if it doesn't work right away. You're going to have to work your butt off. And when you think you're at your limit, you have to keep going another twenty miles.
Other stuff that MAY help you...
2. make weight loss goals that are tiny. Even better, goals that you know you can make it to.
3. Weigh every day at the same time. (poop and meals and fluid in your body will change your weight, so take weight at the same time every day for accuracy.)
4. Accept what's going on. Admit the truth. If you gained weight, say it out loud. If you feel like punching the wall or crying, don't pretend you aren't upset by hiding it.
5. Don't make excuses, especially not to yourself. If you do that, you trying to make yourself feel better about making mistakes. If you just admit that sometimes you're going to fail, it isn't so difficult to try.
6. just believe in yourself already. There's no other way to have confidence except by taking it.❞
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