Vast Dreams, Other Worlds, and Facing fear.

Sometimes I have dreams that remind me of what I'm afraid of. They're not scary when I'm asleep, though. They are the most frightening when I think about them later-- because they represent what I'm afraid of in real life.

Get this. My most common one includes my fish dying (either I forget the others, or this one is simply the most reaccurring. I've had dying fish dreams for years.) Often one fish will eat another in the tank, or a big fish won't have enough room to swim, and be as big as the tank is. Often, a fish will jump out of the tank and I'll have to put it back in, hoping it isn't going to die from my finger oils and not being able to breathe. And then there's the times that I have to put it in water, and the water is hot.

My other ones are about school. Being late to school, having tests and projects that I haven't studied for, and living in a frighteningly big dorm, way too bright, and one I can't find my room in. The dreams have a power to scare me that is unlike life, and when I feel that again in real life, it is a different kind of fear than the direct kind-- it's the kind I want to run away from.

I want to face my fears.