To think about. To accomplish, soon.

When I start thinking about or go to get a job, I need to remember these things:

1) It is O.K.A.Y. to take a break. I don't have to be embarrassed, and wonder what other people think, that they're probably wondering what is up and judging and analyzing and all that. I need to do what I need to do, and I have done and will do the right thing-- for the most part, I must think this way, not that it's correct, but that I can't get anywhere without this confidence.I took this break for my own good and it was VALUABLE.

2) come to terms with how I feel about my failures, my successes-- all that's in my past-- and my self. Write about how I feel, and why the negative things aren't true.

3) compare my life to anime, and imagine (realize :) that I am part of a story-- that will always make me feel better.

4) I am capable of many things; so choose a job to go after that I know I, Cara, can handle-- even more-- it should be a job I can do better than others.

5) when I start working, do one thing at a time. Doing a good job and maintaining relaxation and progress at home will be my first priority, next, come other things, like weight loss, and Japanese study, which I must carefully do one at a time, since weight loss really can take your whole day, so one at a time.

6) and so... make a list of jobs that I can do, that I like, that I'm really good at, and that will make money and not interfere with my home life and progress in a bad way.

7) just like with the anime imagination idea, remember that I'm doing this to fulfill my role of responsibility-- thinking of it this way reminds me that I am capable of holding a job and that I don't have to think otherwise.

8) don't sit back and plan it all. plan it with a goal of actually doing it, then actually do it. I have the ability to see it through, not just plan on seeing it through. I have to continue this quest until it's finished, and then it's on to new things: getting good at my job, then using the entire experience to progress in life, reaching my goals and all the things I need to do along with it.


9) watch out for waiting. Don't wait on getting a job when you should be doing. Start recognizing when I'm using excuses to avoid getting this job and making money for school.

10) think of my future as I do all this. look at the big picture; when you do that, you'll realize how silly it is to be self-conscious. This isn't all about my problems, this is about me. There is a huge difference.