Short Me-summary! [Conceited Me-talk!]

... As if I hadn't been doing that the whole time.... :)

Okie dokie everybody! I have an actual comment on my blog (!), and so I'm going to type a teeny summary about me, since I never put it in my "about me" section... but maybe I should!? naw, too long.

--> I've just left college unfinished. I barely believe in myself anymore. I just completely gave up and failed with the worst grades possible. Actually... I got addicted to TV and let myself be taken away with it instead of facing the problems I was causing myself. I have very bad self control. So NOW, I'm re-wiring my time management, self-control, and self-confidence.

In the past, I've worked in care-homes for elderly, and as a sales representative. I was fine at both jobs. I'd like a job as a receptionist now, but it looks like jobs aren't too available... I have yet to look. :) (I procrastinate. I am a BIG scaredy-cat.)

My important things: get a job, practice piano, learn Japanese, study the Bible. I really want to make these my priorities, all kind of important in their own way, things I don't forget for a single day.

Also, I live in a family of four, with married parents and a teenage brother. I'm a 7th-day adventist, my whole life, and I've made it one of my goals to learn about God so I understand WHY I believe what my church believes, instead of just "going along" with those principles.

About my religion.... Seventh-day adventists might be considered similar to Baptists. We're very biblically-based, and our trademark is "Ellen White", no jewelry, haystacks, no dancing... I'm just naming archaic stereotypes, of course. (It's a joke, a JOKE!!!) Ask me, if you want to know! I think our denomination has some really great ideas, good people, and I've gone to our schools my whole life, and I really like it. But really, the difference in religion, to me, is the way people interpret God. Some ideas that differ from 7th-day adventism are deadly incorrect, while some SDA principles SHOULD be looked at in a different way. I DO think our beliefs are correct, but I know that bringing up arguments isn't the best way to get people's attention at first glance. However, it's GOOD to QUESTION things! Tradition should be examined. But mostly, I just really believe in loving others, like Jesus says to do. :)

I am a confused, indecisive person... and conceited. I never know whether I am myself because I really am, or I just think that. I am stubborn, emotional, and I have a temper when it comes to family. I wish I was a calmer person, but I'm not. :) I can pretend well, though.... I lie to myself a lot-- that's how I got bad grades, because I hid from what I was doing. I do it now, even today. I want to travel the world. I want to communicate with people. I'm curious. I love understanding things, especially emotion.

Oh, and I am easily addicted to TV and activities like writing, or organizing, and I'm lazy.... I wish I had lots of money and influence, but at the same time, I want to be a good person who doesn't, you know, deserve death for her complete SELFISHNESS (partly 'cause I do care about others, so it's confusing.) I don't know what else to write....

Uhhh. Maybe too much information? Anyway. I don't know what else to write about me. Mr. Johnny, let me know if that is something to start with? Thanks!

Before I had a blog entries

I've got some old papers I saved before I had a blog. I'm going to start typing those sorts of things on here, instead of keeping them for a scrapbook. Most of them aren't pretty or unique enough for a scrapbook, they're just boring in my handwriting. I keep ENOUGH stuff...! So I'm not going to worry about throwing them out.

Therefore, I have a new label: before I had a blog. The dates will be messed up, since I will leave whatever date I enter them in as the date, but you'll see an estimation from when I wrote it at the top of the entry.

Ta-da!

New Playlist in my blog

Hello there! I've put a playlist in my blog. I'm excited about it! Please listen to something in the pieces. Music a totally big deal to me. I just love it. To me, each song represents colors and feelings. It motivates me to work out, and simply do anything really, like cleaning my room or studying, etcera etcera. It represents life, sometimes, in ideals that are easy to forget if you look at the world TOO logically or realistically. Sometimes, I think logic and reason DO fail. They fail when they don't explain something. For instance, they can't explain an emotion through an experience, because emotion and reason are two different facets of how to experience life. Mixing those two ways of experience is preferable, you can't say they're the same.

Hopefully the playlist will keep working. I had some trouble with it earlier because of my flash player - playlist.com said I needed to update Adobe, but I'd done it five times, the correct way, uninstalling while no programs were running... but maybe I just needed to restart my browser a few times. Who knows, it works now! Here's my blog playlist has now:

♥ Bjork's "All is Full of Love"
♥ A THEME FROM BLEACH
♥ Anime Libera
♥ FIREFLIES
♥ 2 themes from Vampire Knight
♥ 3 BLEACH SOUNDTRACKS
♥ and 1 more theme from bleach

First Explanation

Another of my labels is going to be called explanation, where I put things that explain other things, so that it won't be difficult to search out entries that help you understand the organization of this blog.

For this explanation, I wanted to say that some of the "Idea" labels are going to be re-copied from "daily entries" so that one doesn't have to read through a whole daily entry to find an "Idea". After all, where do you get ideas from, except during the day? So therefore I would naturally want to include the idea in a daily entry, and likely explain how it came to be, which isn't necessarily important to the actual idea. So I will publish those "Idea"s separately as repeated text. Yippee for organization and categorization!!